I’m 31 years old. This morning, I get up and make some coffee. Then mess around on the web for a bit. Intent on letting the wife sleep in, I go get my second cup of coffee and head out to the garage to monkey about. I walk past the front of my car and then it feels as though someone just hit me square in the center of my chest with a baseball bat. It hurt so badly I fell down onto the hood of my car. I was having a heart attack.
It’s amazing as you sit there fairly certain that you’re going to die what thoughts pop into your head:
Is there a God?
Is there a Heaven or Hell?
What will it be like, dying and all that?
Will it hurt? Will it suck? Tickle? Leave a mark?
Have I done enough with my life for people to remember me for who I was?
I wish I’d had kids.
I thought absolutely none of the above. Not one single question about the nature of life, my accomplishments, death, God, the universe, or anything spiritually minded pop into my head. Zilch, nothing. I had two thoughts: 1) my wife will find me dead, hunkered lifeless over the hood of a 2001 Chrysler Sebring Convertible, wearing only my bathrobe. It’s gonna be one shitty morning for her. And 2) I started running through in my mind how much life insurance I had on myself and could it provide for my wife. I was amazed at how quickly I could do math in my head when I was close to death. I was content that she had enough (financial advisors say get your annual salary times 10) and we had prepared for the worst.
I soon realized, to my surprise, I wasn’t dead. I got up. The distinct feeling of being hit squarely in the chest with a baseball bat was now a dull throb. It still hurt, but was tolerable. I went to the living room and sat on the couch to collect my thoughts for a couple of minutes. I went through the entire heart attack playbook that they teach every white male from about the age of 12 on. I looked for aspirin. I tried to remain calm. I thought of symptoms from the same playbook: left arm numb, cold extremities, jaw sore. I had none of those. I didn’t fit the heart attack playbook. I decided that I wasn’t going to be one of those guys you read about who dies suddenly then you find out from his wife he had chest pains a week before his death but was too stubborn to go to the hospital.
I awoke the wife. I calmly explained in the most assuring, caring and sincere tone I could muster that I was gonna fucking die. Actually, I didn’t. I told her I needed her to drive me to the hospital and why. She was worried, of course. We had a moment I don’t care to elaborate about. I brushed my teeth, put on shorts, a shirt and hat while she got dressed. And we were off. We were going to Fort Sanders because the wife doesn’t trust Blount Memorial.
For future reference, if you’re driving slowly in the fast lane beside another car, the car behind you that is tailgating you may well have someone with a medical emergency in the passenger seat. This is not the time to tap your brakes to prove some sort of point. Get the hell out of the way. The irony of your WWJD sticker is clearly lost on you.
The emergency room on the strip is an interesting place in the early a.m. hours after UT just beat Florida. But that’s another story. We arrive, the wife fills out a form and writes in big letters under Reason for Visit: Chest pain! She underlined and put the exclamation point. That worked because they quickly take me to a room. Never underestimate the power of assertive punctuation. A doctor comes in and explains to me the possibilities of what may have happened, what they’re going to do, and for me to stay calm. He said it could be the worst (a heart attack); or a pulmonary eruption (which is bad, it’s what that reporter in Iraq died from); a host of other unpleasant things; or nothing.
They take six vials of blood. They do an EKG. They X-Ray my chest. The doctor, being a nice guy, didn’t wait until all the tests were done. He’d come in one at a time as they were done and tell me the news. EKG was fine. Chest X-Ray was normal. All blood samples came back negative. I was the picture of health. Not a thing wrong. We were there for two and a half hours. I was praying that it would be nothing. And praying hard. All the soul searching I failed to do when I thought I was going to die was being done now. The wife and me talked and planned things we needed to do.
Diagnosis: Chest wall pain. Your ribs have little muscles between them that allow the rib cage to expand when you breathe. Apparently, my rib muscles decided that they would spasm for some reason. This can be caused by moving in a funny manner or any number of other reasons. The doc tells me that when someone is backing their car up and they put their arm on the passenger seat and turn around is when it happens most often.
I then said to the doctor: I have cramps? Yes. All my soul searching and revelations were caused by cramps.
The incident made the wife and me closer and made me reevaluate some things. I still have the throbbing pain in my chest that should pass in a few days. It was an interesting Sunday at the SayUncle household and one we won’t forget any time soon.